"30 Days of Notice Period" - #4
#4 A habit that you wish you didn't have
This topic has made me think so much that I haven't been able to write anything all day. When I started thinking along these lines, I could only think of positive attributes disguised as negative ones.
"I work too hard!" or "I am a bit of a perfectionist"
I have recently given a few job interviews, looking for a change (and I got one yay!). So my brain was stuck in that mode. I was approaching this from the perspective of the age-old interview question "What are your biggest weaknesses?" asked time and again in interviews in different forms and variations. So yeah, I kept thinking along those lines and coming up with ridiculous answers.
So I decided to go for a swim, something I do these days when I need to clear my head. Whenever I have too much on my mind or a decision to take, I dive right into the matter and the pool! So, there I am swimming and thinking and a few things come to my mind. Habits or traits that quite a few people disapprove of but I think are right. Again, if I wrote about them, it would not fit the purpose of the blog. A habit that I wish I didn't have. I couldn't really find something, but the swim got me thinking in the right direction.
It was evening now and I still had nothing. So, I got on to other things. I sat down with my friends, "the one who never fails to amaze me" and was discussing the caption of our latest post on Side Hustle (https://www.instagram.com/sidehustle.in/ ). Go check it out! It is really cool!
We were in a bit of a disagreement, and while explaining to her my point, I suddenly realized what habit I would like to get rid of. And when I had the first one, all the others came pouring down on me. It was like the scene from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone when the whole house is bombarded by letters from Hogwarts in my head. Habits coming in from every direction.
I have been able to narrow it down to a few top ones. I tend to get defensive when someone tries to point out my faults and mistakes. I take things too personally, and instead of listening to them, I focus all my energy on proving them wrong. This came up way too often at work when people would review my work. I have been working on this for some time now. I want to not get worked up, hear out the other person process the information without getting defensive.
The other thing that I would like to get rid off is my self-consciousness. For example, this blog that I have been writing for over a couple of years, I have never been able to share it with my friends, or people I know, because I am too self-conscious. Though I have made quite a bit of progress in this area I still have a lot of ground to cover.
So, for now, these are two things about me that I would like to significantly tone down and hopefully, I will! And this is day 4!